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24 February 2017 @ 07:35 pm
Yesterday, I watched a short anime series spin off of Lupin the 3rd that featured a character named Oscar. He was horrible treated, as a queer coded character. Homophobic, transphobic, anti-sex, and anti-women were in the series, but centered around him. For the sake of extra queer coding, he had femme qualities being the gay character. He met a horrible and obscure end.

Right now, I'm considering putting two incarnations of this character into 2 separter stories. I will express him the way I feel he should have been expressed and living a normal life, like other gay people. Like other people.

Oscar's character will not exist as a written off ultar negative stereotype. I will re-imagine his character in my own work. I feel so complied to do this because of the nature of the Lupin series. Everyone in Lupin deserves a chance, and they usually get it. Oscar was an expectation only because he was gay, but I will take him and put him in my work and love him like he should be loved.

I don't want to encourage people to watch the series Oscar is featured in because his queer coding is not the only terrible about it. It's a high quailty work with low standards for story telling, character development, character design, and everyone is out of character in a violent or sexual way. The story is The woman called Fujiko Mine, and it's really about how she got caught on a job, like she always does, and got fucked up for it. And, they re-wrote how she met everyone and she had sex with Zenigata. They acted like she had sex with Jigen and she didn't, and the way they played it was so classless. And, Goemon wanted to go out with her. There was alot that I would call classless about this, and Fujiko was a detestable character to me, now. I have standards and expectations when it comes to Lupin content, and I have to say the Fujiko Mine series is the worst thing I've seen, so far, in Lupin. I'm really seeing the anti-femme culture in Japan with this and Tenchi Muyo.
06 February 2017 @ 11:30 pm
I took an unexpected break from writing during my usual writing season. I usually have a lot more time to write, though. This time around I have a job and social life. But, I still it sitting my head. Due to other inspriation my Kirby might have to go back on long term break.

I have come with other stories, mostly non- Kirby related, and I've dicided to keep the Undertale stuff to myself. I've been watching different animes and I'm putting together another story that might be inspired by Ergo Proxy. I just have a thing about taking I dislike and making my own thing out the the templat, but the stuff that I make out of stuff I dislike rarely sees the public. Ergo Proxy was just too weird for it's own good. I understand why, but I couldn't help but think about Aeon Flux, male harem, anything with robots gaining humanity, and Betterman at the ending  But before tha i watched DearS, so I won't complain a lot.

I just a lot more anime of my list before I can put together a good idea. As for the story that was based off NGE, I'm still trying to re-focus the main inspo to something else. I know I shouldn't try to force it, but I want to do something with Bubblegum Crisis theme. Speaking of which, I tried to watch 1980s Dirty Pair and I had no fun. I didn't bother to try to watch Dirty Pair Flash. Gunsmith Cats is on my list, and I'm reasonlessly thinking I'll get something out of that. I'll so easy to get ideas, I'm sure I'll think of something. My problem is everytime I come back to the NGE story I overthink it and end up right back where I started.

I watched Ergo Proxy because I was told the lead character was bisexual. Was nothing bisexual about that. I waited the bi moments, and they never came. The lead female is super bitchy, and not bisexual. And, she got better. Good old character development! And, she wore ACTUALLY CLOTHING instead of walking around half naked! It just got weird and did too much too fast at the end and it was all "accept stuff" and they were like "I guess", and it was suppose to be like "WOW!" but I watched Betterman so I was like "What the fuck was all that?" THE END. It's post-apocolypic currupt Eutopia, I understand, but tht doesn't excuse the weird, fast pace, unforefilling shit that happened.

I liked all the side characters more, and Pino was a pain in the ass for most of it. I loved Iggy. He really deserve what happened to help. The doctor took too long to die. And, it wan't explained why he was still in his office after he got fired. the side characters I didn't much like I liked more than the 2 main characters, for most of the story. At the same time, maybe EP was too serious for what I want to watch right now. Maybe something serious but colorful is more what I need to look at. I still like Steven Universe, so stuff more like that.

I almost forgot, I'm putting together something for that. An original story in that world. I don't know if it will see the public, but I'm working on my own gems and stuff!
Current Mood: artisticartistic
26 November 2016 @ 11:43 am
I'm making a story based on the events of what's been going on in and with the house. It's mainly going to be about a knight, a princess, and a king - with some mention of past people that have lived in the house with their own roles. The curse of the house is that those of weakness and dishonesty will become broken in mind, body, or spirit.
The knight is a dishonored traveling knight, that is a dragon cursed into a human form. The princess was dethroned and abandoned, but gets some half-hearted from her mother from time to time. The king has long been exiled from his land of origin. He's the only one I have planned powers for. He can call shadow hands to make people disappear or pull their souls out and does as he pleases with them.
Other people that have lived here will be represented as a merchant, a jester, a tradesperson, a theif that is usually disgiused as a mock, and a paranoid insomniac. Others will be random travelers.
The situation has been that we were being bullied by the recently ex-housemates. They'll start off broken when the story opens and become more broken as time goes on.
And, now I know what Punk means to me.

My birthmonth has come and gone but learning and change in non-stop. I've been through a lot on an emotional level but in a way more progressive light since I've decided to stay in Minneapolis. A dumb job, an abusive relationship, and depressed timid roommates. It's all paying off, though. For everything I'm going through I'm getting my health taken care of and I'm learning a lot in the Twin Cities. I'm also digging in a place in the Punk community here.

Speaking on the art side of most things, I've decided to get into Zines. The world of self-publishing my stories and expressions! I already have a big notebook deicated to zine ideas, and it's not full, but I think i have at least 2 ready to start at anytime. Any of them are going to be a mix of art and text, but I have a few strictly art zines planned. They may not stay that way. but it's my production so I can do whatever I want!

A lot of the subjects are going to be things I've blogged or vlogged about in the past. Some issues I've been looking at for a long time, with a development in my thinking of them, as well. There's really so much to go around, but I have a common tagline for my Zines to help them stand out and be a signature thing to my name. I feel like that's important to me, in self-publishing. To make my place in the world of self-publishing. It may not be an original stamp I'm putting on it. Far from original, but it's mine and that's how I'll know it's me.

The topics are in a wide varity, I'd like to think. There are the letters to my past self.  Being a working homeless person, in my most recent issues.Being black and enjoying things labeled as "white" as something that's thrown in my face by ignorance people since I was a teenager. Learning languages, and sex education - things that have been important to me for a long time because they are important in terms of communication. Some fanzines about anime and certain animes. Interest zines for biking and parkour planned, so far. Some political zines, that might have pictues, but will still somehow be fashionable.

I don't have anything directly subjected on rape, but I feel like I already talk about that a lot from a very standard stand point. I'll likely make a zine about it when I've come up with way to combat and pervent rape instead of saying the same things I've been saying for years. My usually rape talk and about staticis, how society acts towards it, and how likely certain people are to be victims. I want a zine to be about how society can be progressive about the issue and supportive and things places trying to do to make survivers more comfortable in everyday life. I want to take a more progressive look at life after rape than rape itself. Resocurses, promoting mental health care, and stuff like that.

In the meantime, I've been up to a lot with getting to know some local rtists. It's not had to find art events in the Twin Cities! In fact, today is the second workshop are setting up the art Exhibition for the various art workshops held over the summer for transgender artists! WHOOP! WHOOP!
01 June 2016 @ 03:37 pm
It's LGBTQ Pride Month and I'm considering letting that be a drive narrative for my creative works this month. The public library system here is going to be the venue for various LGBTQ themed creative workshops that I look forwork to attending!

It just started killing me to not be able to draw whenever I want. I have some many ideas and fanfic scene I want to illistrit and put out! I have some many different for the same characters, I want to see them you know?!I truely love everything I do - giving myself a hard tijme about "not being thing enough" has been a thing long since past! Drawing in conjuction with my creative writing, so if I can't draw my motivitation for writing is affected because I visualize thinga as I go and a lot of those things want to come out on their own. I do random scenes and promotional art from my stories. I need art supplies! I'm burning inside!

I remember the first theme of fanfic for Undertale I mde a few doodles of. It's the one were Frisk has body dysphoria. There's  scene in the story where Frisk's shirt gets ripped up in the front and they ball up and cry because their chest is exposed and their opponet mocks them and the other characters in the fight for their flaws and shame. I'm not done with that story, and I haven't even gotten to the planned scene but it was the driving image behind why the story was started. Another story that I was looking to have  alot of art is Frisk returning to the Underground after a neutarl run with friends to help them and achieves a better ending. I want to do promo art for the stories I'm done with and will be releasing soon!

I also want to do art or Frisk and the Red Stone and I have some comic ideas swimming around.

Current Mood: angryangry
Red Stone:
The Red Stone is something of an easter egg in plain sight. It's behind the door of the music puzzle.
I like this thing, so when I think how it could be useful I have Frisk find it without the dog absorbing it. This is very much in the "untapped potential" of a story device. The stone can seriously do ANYTHING way want because there's written about it, and it's so sad how I see people ignore it! It makes me SAD in my BONES!

Comic Sans:
People are very into Sans's depression, bad pun, and ecto-sex organs but nobody talks about Sans the successful comic. That's seriously his job, and no one talks about it. I've seen people talk about Sans magically getting other jobs, but no one addresses his PASSION.

Genderqueen and Intersex Frisk:
Having a sex and being non-gender comforming. Intersex has been around since people, and there are a lot of intersex people, today. It's a one in 5,000 accurance, from what I understand, and yet no one talks about it. One in 5,000 is a lot of people! And, there's a lot of different types of intersex conditions. This is one of those things where our lack of awareness and understanding of human sexuality, idenity, and physiology really stands out in a "burning glare" type of way. The expressions of Frisk and the first child are so vast yet so limited.

The dynamics of the ghost cosins:
We know there's 3 cosins, but that's a possiblity for more to the family. There's more to the other AU versions of characters that are being left out of the hype. Most of the focus is on MTT and Nap.
26 May 2016 @ 12:43 pm
I've been looking around for a bit, and the fandom isn't really going for being in the "before" era of the story. Far and few I come across people willing to go into something of a backstory or simple reason why Frisk went to Mt. Ebott, even though at the end of the Good Kid run that subject is brought up.

Frisk is a huge temple type of character that the fanbase is freely running with (thought I'm very disappointed in how stereotypcial and inside the box people are with sex and gender, so it's not that "free") but I we still have a lot missing for everything that's been presented.

I have a short list of backstories and reasons. Some just explainations because I like to bring up stuff no one esle talks about. Some are backstories tyied into the current story and has an effect of the different events that happen, like one's where Frisk can use magic or weapons.

My list of backstories:
Frisk ran to the mt to escape domestic violence.

Frisk's family died and they didn't want to go to an orphanage, so they went to Mt Ebott where no one would dare come look for them.

Frisk was rasied by a single mother that used fire magic. When they're house is attacked, Frisk's mother dies in battle and the house is burned down. All Frisk's remembers is their mother telling them to run, so they did. By the time Frisk stopped running they were in the mt area, and continued to run until they fell inside with the monsters. In the device, Frisk has Earth magic.

Frisk goes up to the mt because no one else goes up there and they went to be the first to go up to the mt and come back down to tell the tale. THE UNDERTALE!

Frisk is sent to the Mt as a test of adulthood. They were also told to kill whatever they find and bring it back as proof that they went.

Frisk has heard of Character/ Player/ First Child and the other 6 fabled children that when to the mt and never came back. Frisk goes to investigate the mt and look for the children's bodies.

Frisk is related to one of the pervious 7 children that fell and goes to look for them or anything left of them.

Frisk is from a tride that fells energy easily. It is said that their is an evil energy inside the mt that will one day destory the plante. Frisk takes it upon themselves to seek and destory the terrible energy. Spoliers: The energy is the first child's wicked soul.

Frisk's village is destoried in a raid and they are one of the few surivivors of the event. All the survivors leave what left of the village and go their seperate, leaving Frisk to go to Mt. Ebott. All the survivors are children, and the others go look for other towns and people to take care of them.

I think all that's pretty good, for now.
Current Mood: accomplishedaccomplished
26 May 2016 @ 10:13 am
I'm all out of stuuf! No paper, pencils, not even the clipbroad, anymore. now seems like a good tikme to get back to the bottom and work my way up. Revisiting old things will help me see what's important to me now. Coloring book and crayons. Line ruled paper and color pencils. The good old stuff. I see that I haven't been much self-motived in creating and finishing things. I think back to how enthusict I use to be wonder what happened. I know a lot has can't but things have gone wrong, and I seem to have gone with them. No more will that be. I'm going to get right with myself.
Current Mood: awakeawake
25 May 2016 @ 09:59 pm
2 things I've noticed about the Undertale fandom in it's still early stages. There's a lot of love for Flowey but not much love for the neutarl endings in Undertale. Not a lot of love for Asgore, either. Asgore is usually "that guy" take can't over his ex or move on from the past. I noticed that Asgore doesn't get a lot of explaination in the game, and isn't expressioned that much in the others. The only 2 people that really know Asgore that are willing to talk about him are Undyne and the turtle. We know Asgore is nice and is doing something by reluctant will but we don't get to know Asgore like we get to know the others.

I want to do something Asgore and Flowey related. I have a story planned that is set up after a neutarl ending that turns into a gold run. I've started it but I'm going to re-write it becasue blah.

I'm currently crafting a story that has a highlight on Flowey and explosed more on Asgore as it goes along, in a very uncanny setting! WACKYZANNYFUNTIMEEVERYBOOTY!

I'm trying to think up more stuff that's Frisk x Asgore themed. I have 2 animation set things, both of them to songs I've recently come across. One is how Frisk and Asgore's relationship is kind of blurred between King/ King's assisstance, Father/ Abopted offspring, and relucantly blooding into lovers even though it's weird for both of them. The other is more in the King/ King's assisstant relationship where Asgore messes some stuff up and Frisk has to bail him out and is upset with him but always forgives him and ends on a "mixed relationships" note. That's more of an animation or comic than a writing piece because of the structure I have fit to the song - i see a music video.

About my old stuff:

I'm going to start reading over and fixing the stories I've already made and post them to the public! I've looked over some of it, and I like what I've done! It's matter of corrections and editing details now. I don't know when I'll start but it will be soon and I'll likely post the stories over the summer. The new stuff I'm currently working on may not see the light of interenet for a while.

That's it for now!
Current Mood: amusedamused
Current Music: Undertale OST
12 April 2016 @ 03:07 pm
A new idea has taken quick form in my head, very inspried by The 7 Deadly Sins anime. It doesn't sit well with me how sexualy assualted the female characters in the anime are, so I want to make a more powerful version of it. It's an idea sitting on the backburner for a while, as I have other projects of more enerigitic means to work on. It's not hard to change some characters and themes. I guess I want a feminist version of the show where it's not ok with sexually assault and rape anyone, more female characters, and more female characters with stronger roles. I'll think of something good, but for now it's a lightly rolling idea.
Current Mood: crazycrazy