What You Call "Art"

When I first taking drawing seriously I did it just for me. Not for review or public eyes. When I got friends that liked anime I started sharing with them. It was a great feeling to be around other like-minded people with a common interest. Inspiration, motivation, and joy came from sharing with each other! When sharing on the internet came along it became less about the joy of sharing, and more like a popularity contest that I was aiming to aiming to win! I was easily depressed and discouraged by the artists that had better "skills", better style mimic of popular artists like Naruto and other anime(s), and had better equipment and skill in usage of equipment. I took an artist ego beating for years, but with some dramatic users on a popular (maybe even world known) art site I left the site. In leaving said art site, I left a lot of feelings I held to posting to art sites with it. Even thought I joined other sites afterwards I thought I was still in love with posting in public, but my right brain caught up with my left brain and I found out I wasn't. It didn't hit me tragically, and I still continued to post in a much lack-luster tone. The rules, site layout, and user treatments on the art sites became unreasonable so I went to just posting on blog sites. Now, I don't want to post on the blog sites. It's not too much work, like posting on art sites these days, but I just don't feel like I want attention, anymore. I doubt I'll very pass up a chance to share with another like minded artist, but posting publicly has lost it's flare. I've long since lost the "popularity contest" I was fighting to win, and I don't even got basic attention. No one shows care for my posts, so there's no point. If no one cares to look that means I'm not even sharing with other similar creators. That's away my last reason to post my creations in public.

I want to keep the activity going for blog, however. As I'm taking the public pressure off posting visual, I might put more time back into fanfics. I'll draw forever, but fanfics I actually do for the public! I have a following in my fanfics, which is my motivation! I just have to get back in the spirit of writing. It's actually not my favorite thing to do, but I love expressing myself in any form!

We'll just have to see what comes of all this.

I took my GED test this month, very much ahead of my set time. Pushing and pulling for that took me out of this month. I don't know when I'm going to start the comic now, if at all. I don't want to do something so serious, right after something else very serious.

In other news: I've start, and am about to finish watching, Kirby of the Stars (Hoshi no Kaabii). I feel like I'm going to actively take part in this fandom, and I have a fanfic rolling in my head. The chances it will come out are likely, if/ when I get my ideas in order. Of cor, I have to do fanart, first!

That's all I have art related for now.

I have a few major events coming up, including the start of my mecha comic! I don't have a set date, and I'm not going to try to hold myself to an updating schedule after I start. It will be just as unpredictable as any other webcomic. The updates could be between a few times a week, month, or year. I have more ideas, so I may be working on more than one comic at a time.

There's finally a name of this mecha series. All will be revealed on the release!

It's finally time to show off what I've been planning and talking about for so long. It's time for me to start something, if anything at all. I'm getting myself hyped up to do it, and I've been telling people I'm going to start this or next month - depending on how it will correlate with other events in my life. I still don't have everything planned out, but I'm confident I have enough planned out to start, and work my way into the rest, as needed. I have the main characters, enemies, robots, and some other still. Still working out some names, and places, but it will be ok.

Most importantly, I'm still working out the name for the comic. I have some ideas floating around, so I might go old school. Write them all down on paper, cut the paper, throw them up, and pick the name that lands closest to me. That doesn't sound like a bad idea.

I'm going to post what I have finalized, soon. It might not be a good idea to post concept art, but final ref sheets will likely be posted.

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Typed a while ago. Forgot to post it.

Monday, 24 December, 2012
I'm still working on my original stories, not just the mecha one. Everything I have to do is so long term, and will take a lot of planning. I was hoping to get something start before the year was up. I'm only making progress with the more I develop, but I want to start putting something out. There's nothing I can make with an original bases that will be entertaining in a short story realm. I'm going to have to turn to fandom to solve this problem, but that makes a whole new thing I have to work on. In the short run, I won't have to develop as much, as most of it is already made for me, so it should be that much of a pain. I also need some short terms ideas, like some jokes or something. A "Think tank" would be useful at times like these.

Written Tuesday, December 04, 2012

I'm making a series with huge robots. BUT, YOU WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO TELL, BECAUSE I NEVER TALK ABOUT OR THINK OF THE ROBOTS.

I know I want them to look human shaped, because that's the most conveniant thing for me, as I'm use to drawing humans. You know, a human outline with robot detail lines. I don't want them to be gendered, but thinking about all the robots with a clearly masculine look, I want mine to have a feminie look, but or cor, not being "female". The most that might come out of it is they have human-like heads and mid areas, but the arms and legs (and anything else I want to add) look like something else.

I've drafted them already, and I came up with some good stuff. I still like the first ideas, but I want them to be more unifromed and a like so I don't have so much to remember.

I say all this now, but watch these damn things come out looking like perfect giant humaniod women.

As usual, I've gotten months behind in my coloring. I just don't like coloring, because I feel like i'm not good at it. And, you you know the best way to learn how to do something is to AVOID IT! HAHAHA! Then, come back to it, and rush it out, so you don't have some much old stuff to do going into next year.

I doubt I'll have it all scanned before Jan, but I'm almost done with all the coloring I had to do. Either I didn't draw much, or I didn't have as much I wanted to color... or both. I put in some new things in my coloring, and I like what I've done, so far. I have to put in some new things, and go back to some old things to get back in the habit of doing more for my "art" to make my comics look good without it having to be thought of as a boring chore. I do like the extra coloring styles, and other things that will go into it to make it "bolder", but it just takes so long. It can make one page of coloring and inking go into 30 mins to an hour. I've gotten use to being "quick and dirty" about everything. EASY HABIT TO FORM; HARD HABIT TO BREAK!

Inking is going to be NEEDED. The lead smudging is bad enough on random pictures. That is going to be totally unacceptable in a comic that I want to make out my level of "top quality". I want to get graphic pencil, so I can use to light lead, and easy without those left over lines still in the picture, but I'll do with what I have when I'm ready to start comics. I draw on copy paper, not in an artbook. Copy paper is going to be something to work with, for something I want to look "quality", but I'll do fine! HAAAAAAAAA!

I feel like i'm talking about all this comic prematurely, as I'm not any where near done DRAFTING characters, and places. At the same time, there's nothing wrong with knowing what I want to do when I'm ready to do it! I could just as easily say "FUCK IT" and start doing stuff, and wing it all as I go. I don't see much good coming from that, as these are going to be long term projects. It would be a GOOD IDEA to plan out as much as I can stand think of, but it's far from required to plan anything. Planning is best for the sake of consistantancy and lessens the chance of plot or event blockage to keep me from advancing the story. Of cor, that's no grantee I'll finish, but there's NO chance of finishing something if it's not started!

I want to start the comic, but when I got paper I thought about how I haven't properly drafted the side characters, the enemies, and the places... so yeah.

I want to start drawing a comic. I mean, I REALLY WANT TO START THIS COMIC, but I can't because I'm almost out of paper. It would do me some progress to re-direct my energy that's in this comic to my writing, as I can do that. I need to re-direct my energy, focus, and inspo to what I CAN do!

I deleted my old pic out of my photobucket, so all my old posts in this blog are pictureless now! It was a good short walk down memory lane to look at my old stuff, but it's time to move on. I saw were I came from, and I don't know where I'm going, but I'm getting there. In all honesty, I've very proud of myself, and I wouldn't take anything back. Now to progress on!